depression - read only if you care

Now I know how he feels. I always thought suicide is a very silly and selfish option. Instead of trying to overcome your problems, you are only running away from it. But right now, at this very moment, I finally understand the feeling, the feeling why people have to commit suicide. When everything in the world seems to be against you. When your friends, you know they would be there for you, aren't exactly there for you at the moment. When there is so much frustrations and so much for you to share, but you can't/don't know how/is hesitant and afraid to confide. You wish to tell your best friend, a couple of friends, about it. You want to get it off your chest. But, you have your reservations. I know how you feel now Gab, serious. Right now, 'just die' is the easy way out, but I can't. I have a grandmother who is the closest person to me in this world. She dotes on me, she would scrimp on herself just to splurge on me. Recalling how she used to take care of me would still bring a tear to my eye. A grandmother who only wants the best for me.

Yiwei: I know less than 1 hour ago I am still very normal. But, things like this ARE like this. These feelings come anytime and unexpectably. I am just somebody who don't show my unhappy side to friends. Which is also why I always wear a smile on my face; Kelvin always "looks" so friendly and nice, agree?